Everybody in my household went to Uman, BH.
The husband, even the sons-in-law,even the son-in-law who has never been before, he went with a group of ‘secular’ guys from his yishuv who have also never been before. It’s simply amazing what’s going on in Israel.
So they are all there – and my house is full of my kids and their kids.
3 little boys under the age of 1 1/2.
2 with diarrhea.
3 with snot.
2 mums who when they arrived were cracking up, from lack of sleep and ‘stress’. Not eating, not sleeping.
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And me?
I got told by my nice Chinese Med lady that I ‘burned out’ and need to take it easy, really easy. Put myself first. Have time to relax and eat well and exercise…
I had hugely conflicting emotions for a few days before ‘the gathering’ arrived in my house.
How am I going to manage?
How am I going to have ‘me’ time and ‘nurturing’ in the middle of all this?
I haven’t slept through the night for like, at least six months, everything has been such a balagan.
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Then, two things happened:
Thing one, was I came across this guy called Tommy John III.
Here’s one of his videos:
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Here’s a snippet from underneath the video, above:
Your body only heals. No exceptions.
All symptoms are symptoms of healing, all collections of symptoms of healing man calls disease are healing responses, and all injuries are to the strongest areas of your body creating the least amount of damage for you to learn and grow.
To what degree is dependent on your obedience to the rules of your body, your creativity within those rules called your life and your consistency within the rules and poetry. You are both parent and child. That’s what’s tough.
Nobody is teaching you how to be both now in any form of medicine. Rather just fixing you, protecting you, paving roads for you to never have to have any idea how to drive when it’s not ideal conditions.
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Let’s call it, focussed ‘body emuna’.
It’s really the ‘body’ aspect of Rebbe Nachman’s teachings.
At least, that’s how I’m relating to it.
God sometimes hides wisdom in such strange places, including tattooed dudes who used to be pro sportsmen, then chiropractors – and now, drive all over the US telling people what ‘teshuva’ they really need to make, to get well.
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Bottom line: it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Health is totally, utterly, a spiritual conversation, a teshuva process, a prompt to fix something profound.
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The second thing, is I realised just how much one of my kids actually really needs my help, at the moment.
She needs some real nurturing, some real loving, some real mesirut nefesh, to start to ping back from a very challenging few months.
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Long story short:
I realised, I WANT to be there for my kids and my grandkids, and I don’t want to be whingeing about teeth, lack of sleep, funny eyes, none of that.
I went, I did a tiny bit of hitbodedut about a bunch of things, and I realised, a lot of my ‘symptoms’ are coming from feeling I have no choice.
Once I understood that, and I understood that I CAN choose, mamash, to do or not do – things are turning around.
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BH, my house looks like a bomb hit it.
Small guys take a lot of energy… But I am loving seeing them, having them around, being part of their live.
Sure, my tops are covered in snot and I don’t know what else – but it’s life, isn’t it?
Thank God, let me be a grannie covered in snot who is really part of life with my kids and their families, and not a precious ‘grandmother’ who is more worried about their furnishings and appearance than getting on the floor with the kids.
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Tov.
Take that wherever you personally want to.
But, I slept through the night properly for the first time in months yesterday, having got up at 4am to take my folks to the airport for Uman, and then spent the whole day with kids and grandkids, doing kindnesses that I was CHOOSING to do, and that made me feel good and happy.
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Yesterday night, I got a call from my friend at the Kollel Chatzot in the Old City.
The Rosh Kollel also runs the Shuvu Banim ‘welcome place’ in Uman, that provides heavily subsidised food and bedding, because most of the core Shuvu are real avreichim, and just getting the money for the tickets to go is a big struggle for them, never mind food and board.
This year, as the Rav is there, even more people came – and the ‘welcome place’ is really struggling to accommodate them.
It takes a ton of money to put food on the table for approaching a week, for 300 people – even if that food is simple.
Can you write something, to see if anyone is willing to help?
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So, I am.
Because let’s be honest, you will not get a better bang for your charity buck, than helping to feed a bunch of Shuvu avreichim in Uman, for Rosh Hashana.
The zchut is simply stratospheric, it ticks every box you can think of.
There is no fancy link, as they need the money today, to go and get more food etc for the chag, and fancy links and payment systems take a few days to process.
So, bank transfer, with no charitable status attached, is the way this can be done.
Mamash, mesirut nefesh for the giver, and the highest form of tzedekah, truly lishma.
I wonder, really, how many people are even ‘there’ any more?
Even the people who pride themselves on being big givers.
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DETAILS:
MEIR SAADEH
BANK: DOAR [POST OFFICE BANK]
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ACCOUNT: 24446715
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Only give, if you are really CHOOSING to do that.
And then, it will be such a bracha, in so many ways.
May Hashem bless us all with a healthy, happy, holy Rosh Hashana 5787.
