Everybody in my household went to Uman, BH.

The husband, even the sons-in-law,even the son-in-law who has never been before, he went with a group of ‘secular’ guys from his yishuv who have also never been before. It’s simply amazing what’s going on in Israel.

So they are all there – and my house is full of my kids and their kids.

3 little boys under the age of 1 1/2.

2 with diarrhea.

3 with snot.

2 mums who when they arrived were cracking up, from lack of sleep and ‘stress’. Not eating, not sleeping.

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And me?

I got told by my nice Chinese Med lady that I ‘burned out’ and need to take it easy, really easy. Put myself first. Have time to relax and eat well and exercise…

I had hugely conflicting emotions for a few days before ‘the gathering’ arrived in my house.

How am I going to manage?

How am I going to have ‘me’ time and ‘nurturing’ in the middle of all this?

I haven’t slept through the night for like, at least six months, everything has been such a balagan.

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Then, two things happened:

Thing one, was I came across this guy called Tommy John III.

Here’s one of his videos:

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Here’s a snippet from underneath the video, above:

Your body only heals. No exceptions.

All symptoms are symptoms of healing, all collections of symptoms of healing man calls disease are healing responses, and all injuries are to the strongest areas of your body creating the least amount of damage for you to learn and grow.

To what degree is dependent on your obedience to the rules of your body, your creativity within those rules called your life and your consistency within the rules and poetry. You are both parent and child. That’s what’s tough.

Nobody is teaching you how to be both now in any form of medicine. Rather just fixing you, protecting you, paving roads for you to never have to have any idea how to drive when it’s not ideal conditions.

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Let’s call it, focussed ‘body emuna’.

It’s really the ‘body’ aspect of Rebbe Nachman’s teachings.

At least, that’s how I’m relating to it.

God sometimes hides wisdom in such strange places, including tattooed dudes who used to be pro sportsmen, then chiropractors – and now, drive all over the US telling people what ‘teshuva’ they really need to make, to get well.

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Bottom line: it hit me like a ton of bricks.

Health is totally, utterly, a spiritual conversation, a teshuva process, a prompt to fix something profound.

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The second thing, is I realised just how much one of my kids actually really needs my help, at the moment.

She needs some real nurturing, some real loving, some real mesirut nefesh, to start to ping back from a very challenging few months.

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Long story short:

I realised, I WANT to be there for my kids and my grandkids, and I don’t want to be whingeing about teeth, lack of sleep, funny eyes, none of that.

I went, I did a tiny bit of hitbodedut about a bunch of things, and I realised, a lot of my ‘symptoms’ are coming from feeling I have no choice.

Once I understood that, and I understood that I CAN choose, mamash, to do or not do – things are turning around.

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BH, my house looks like a bomb hit it.

Small guys take a lot of energy… But I am loving seeing them, having them around, being part of their live.

Sure, my tops are covered in snot and I don’t know what else – but it’s life, isn’t it?

Thank God, let me be a grannie covered in snot who is really part of life with my kids and their families, and not a precious ‘grandmother’ who is more worried about their furnishings and appearance than getting on the floor with the kids.

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Tov.

Take that wherever you personally want to.

But, I slept through the night properly for the first time in months yesterday, having got up at 4am to take my folks to the airport for Uman, and then spent the whole day with kids and grandkids, doing kindnesses that I was CHOOSING to do, and that made me feel good and happy.

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Yesterday night, I got a call from my friend at the Kollel Chatzot in the Old City.

The Rosh Kollel also runs the Shuvu Banim ‘welcome place’ in Uman, that provides heavily subsidised food and bedding, because most of the core Shuvu are real avreichim, and just getting the money for the tickets to go is a big struggle for them, never mind food and board.

This year, as the Rav is there, even more people came – and the ‘welcome place’ is really struggling to accommodate them.

It takes a ton of money to put food on the table for approaching a week, for 300 people – even if that food is simple.

Can you write something, to see if anyone is willing to help?

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So, I am.

Because let’s be honest, you will not get a better bang for your charity buck, than helping to feed a bunch of Shuvu avreichim in Uman, for Rosh Hashana.

The zchut is simply stratospheric, it ticks every box you can think of.

There is no fancy link, as they need the money today, to go and get more food etc for the chag, and fancy links and payment systems take a few days to process.

So, bank transfer, with no charitable status attached, is the way this can be done.

Mamash, mesirut nefesh for the giver, and the highest form of tzedekah, truly lishma.

I wonder, really, how many people are even ‘there’ any more?

Even the people who pride themselves on being big givers.

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DETAILS:

MEIR SAADEH

BANK: DOAR [POST OFFICE BANK]

SNIF: 1

ACCOUNT: 24446715

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Only give, if you are really CHOOSING to do that.

And then, it will be such a bracha, in so many ways.

May Hashem bless us all with a healthy, happy, holy Rosh Hashana 5787.

Rabbenu tells the story of the ‘Horse in the Pump’.

I’ll stick the whole thing below this post, from HERE.

Long story short, it’s a story of how people delude themselves, and let greed and ‘imagination’ totally take them off the right path in life, leaving them chasing after ‘riches’ and ‘success’ that never comes.

Because, it’s just not real.

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So, there’s a guy who is gifted a ‘horse’ by demons called letzim – which he doesn’t believe in.

This is such a fine looking horse, that he takes it to market the next day, and gets offered a good amount for it.

Wow! If they are happy to pay that much for it, it must be worth double!!!

So, he doesn’t sell it, and the price goes up.

He takes that fine horse to a different market, and the same thing happens again, this time at the new price.

Wow! If they are happy to pay that much for it, it must be worth double!!!

So, he doesn’t sell it, and the price goes up.

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This continues for a while, until finally, only the king himself can afford the price of the horse.

And the king himself really does offer to pay that incredible price… but the stupid man repeats his same pattern:

Wow! If the king is happy to pay that much for it, it must be worth double!!!

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At this point, the ‘horse’ runs away, and disappears up the spout of a water pump.

The guy starts crying, runs after it, and every now and then, the horse sticks its head out of the water pump – and he tries to recapture it, but can’t.

Read the whole story below.

The bottom line is, that guy spends his whole life running after an illusion, a chimera – and can’t detach from it even after it’s disappeared up the water pump and shown itself to be totally ‘unreal’.

My friends, this is the real estate market.

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Just like where you live, too, Israel is currently filled with overpriced homes that no-one can afford to buy, but where the price doesn’t drop because ‘it’s worth at least double’.

Everyone is just sitting there, sure as sure can be, that their property is going to double again in another year, or 2 years, or 10 years – so why would I sell it now, for less than it’s really worth?!

The newsflash is, A PROPERTY IS ONLY REALLY WORTH WHAT SOMEONE ACTUALLY BUYS IT FOR.

That shouldn’t be a chiddush, but in our crazy world, it is.

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A few months ago, I met someone I hadn’t seen for 12 years, from the old ‘hood.

She used to have one of the biggest, fanciest houses in that hood.

It’s worth, like, 58 million gazillion, or something.

Trouble was – she ended up getting a divorce. And no-one could afford to buy the 58 million gazillion house, so she and her ex had to split the property, and she lives upstairs, with her new husband, while he lives downstairs, with his new wife.

This honestly sounds like a bizarre form of gehinnom to me, but what do I know.

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I know someone else, who got stuck with their ‘luxury property’ in chul, trying to sell it for years, convinced that it was really worth double.

In the meantime, the mortgage payments was killing them, they’d moved and bought somewhere else, already, and the only thing that got them out of a looming foreclosure issue was paying a pidyon to the Rav.

Even then, they had to accept an offer that was not fantastic, in their eyes, but good enough to stop them going bankrupt…

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So many people are stuck, mouldering away, in properties they can’t sell, because like the guy in the story, any offer they get just doesn’t seem to be ‘enough’.

And it’s having such a bad ‘trickle down’ effect, in so many ways.

To give just one example: old, lonely people rolling around massive villot with rooms they never go in, whilst families with 8 kids are stuck in 3 room apartments, (if they are lucky…) because real estate is just so darned expensive.

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As always, Rabbenu called it precisely.

Your house is the horse is the pump.

And the only way to get out of the problem, is to stop deluding yourself that it’s worth 58 million gazillion, and to sell it for whatever someone is really prepared to pay for it.

And then, move on joyfully with your life.

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[The Pump]

Regarding the discussion which [some of Rebbe Nachman’s chassidim] were having about someone who was then in one of the large non-Jewish cities and tarried there a long time because each time he imagined that now he would succeed: and so it was each time, until he was delayed there a long time. And he [the Rebbe] said that that is the way it goes when one comes to such places, that each time it seems to him, “Now I will accomplish, now I will accomplish,” etc., etc. And he told this story:

There was one man who did not believe what the world says, that there are leitzim/tricksters from the Sitra Achra/ Other Side that come sometimes to mislead people, as has happened several times; he did not believe this. One night, a leitz came to him and called him to go outside. He went out and the leitz showed him that he had a beautiful horse to sell. He looked and indeed it was a very beautiful horse, so he asked him, “How much do you want?” Answered the leitz, “Four adumim/rubles.” He saw that it was easily worth eight rubles, for it was a choice, fine horse. So he bought the horse from him for four rubles and he considered it a great find. The next day, he took the horse out to sell, and people stepped up to purchase and wanted to give him some amount. He said, “Probably, if they are willing to give me so much, it must be worth double!” So he was not satisfied and he took the horse onward, and they wanted to give him twice his desire. He said, “It is probably worth more than double this amount.” So he brought the horse onward, until the price of the horse reached into the thousands. However, he was not satisfied with any of them to sell it, for whatever they wanted to give him, he said, “It is probably worth twice as much.” Eventually, there was no one who could buy it except the king.

So he brought it to the king, and the king wanted to give him an astounding amount, for the horse was exceedingly pleasing to everyone. However, he was not willing with the king either, for he said, “It is probably worth more.” Thus, even the king was unable to buy the horse. So he went from the king with the horse to water it. There was a plomf/pump there from which people take water. The horse jumped into the pump, disappeared and was no more. (That is, it appeared to him as such, for the entire incident of the horse was made up by the leitz). He yelled out loud over this, and people gathered around in response to his screaming and asked him, “Why are you screaming?” He replied that his horse had jumped into the pump. And they beat him [with] injurious blows, for he appeared insane since the opening of the pump is very narrow, and how can a horse jump into it? He saw that they were beating him and that he appeared insane, and he wanted to go from there. As he wanted to leave, the horse began to stick its head out of the pump. So he began to scream again, “Aha, aha (look, look)!” since it appeared to him that his horse was there. The people gathered around and beat him again, since he was insane, as mentioned. Again he decided to leave; and as soon as he wanted to go, the horse again stuck its head out of the pump. He began shouting again as before and the people gathered upon him again and beat him.

Thus the Sitra Achra deceives a man each time with nothingness; complete lies having no substance. And he is incited by it, pursues it, and each time it appears to him that he will profit more and that he will fill his craving more. So he runs after it many times, and suddenly all his desires vanish, get away and go away from him — as has happened many times, that the cravings go away a little, and when the man wants to detach from them, then they come back and stick out their heads and he goes back to chasing them. And so it continues, that as soon as they stick out their heads, he goes back to chasing them. (And he explained the matter no further. Understand this well.)

 

Shiur from the Rav in Uman, Elul 18th, 5786 (31st August, 2026)

To thank and praise for the enormous miracle, that we managed to chop off the octopus’ tentacles. It has a million tentacles, but the Rebbe chopped off all the tentacles of the octopus, and the Rav entered, after five years that the Rav wasn’t in Uman.

Because they shut the Tziyun HaKodesh in the Rav’s face – all different types of cholkim (opposers), and all different sorts of wicked people.

But now, the Rebbe beat all of them!

It’s impossible to prevent anyone from coming to the Rebbe! [Rebbe Nachman of Breslov]

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“The mountains skipped like rams”.[1]

Simply, the mountains joined together, like it’s written in Rashi, [on Parshat] Chukat, that the mountains joined together, and became a ‘cascade of rivers’. That it became a river of blood, a river of blood, of unfortunate people, free of sin, tzaddik olam.

And everything turned into a river of blood, because they didn’t want [the Jews] to enter Eretz Yisrael,[2] they didn’t want them to enter Eretz Yisrael. It became a river of blood, and then the mountains joined together… There was a miracle.

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“Et ha-nahalim Arnon, eshed ha-nahal…”[3]

Rivers of blood, that all the mountains joined together – this was a greater miracle than the splitting of the sea. At the splitting of the sea, the sea opened up, but remained the same sea.

Here, the mountains moved! They skipped, like a chatan greeting his kallah, like a maidservant greeting her mistress. The mountains jumped! They skipped like rams, they jumped to greet Am Yisrael, when it was entering the Land.

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Now, [they] are coming to the Tziyun, the mountains are joining together, all the mountains are skipping…

Everyone is going to return in teshuva. Now, they will start ‘skipping’, everyone who comes to Uman, they are going to start dancing now.

And those who are in the Aretz, they will start dancing now. “Zachreinu le-chaim, Melech chafetz ba-chaim”.[4]

All the zemirot, it’s possible to start singing now, already… We’ll recite it after ma’ariv, ma’ariv we will pray together, immediately after ma’ariv, we will recite ‘Nishmat’ together, ‘Nishmat’, and also, Hallel HaGadol, without the blessing. We will say Hallel HaGadol, and we will also say the hallel of Rosh Chodesh, without a blessing.

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“Odecha ki anitani v’tihi li l’yeshuah”.[5]

“The stone that was rejected by the builders became the capstone”. “The stone that was rejected by the builders became the capstone”. Me’et Hashem haytah zot, hi nifla’ah b’eineinu”.[6] It’s wondrous.

It’s impossible to understand this wonder, we need to dance for 24 hours, from this moment. “This came from Hashem; it is wondrous in our eyes.” “Ze hayom asah Hashem, nagila v’nismacha bo.”[7]

This is this day, that will continue until motzae Yom Kippur, dances that don’t stop for a second.

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And it’s forbidden to quarrel with anyone who’s offending you, and also don’t answer back, and also, don’t ‘explain’.

You don’t need to ‘explain’ anything, everything should just be from himself. Today… Like the night, the day already arrived, the day has risen, it’s already dawn, we see the day, we see the light.

And the light pushes away all of the darkness.

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And don’t stand on the benches to see the Rav.

And don’t yell out HaRav! HaRav! And don’t mention any requests – the Rebbe sees everyone, all the requests should go straight to the Rebbe [Rebbe Nachman]. You don’t need to remind the Rav about any request, or about any name, not of a woman giving birth, and not someone who wants a child, and not of a bride, and not of a groom. Don’t mention any names!

Everything is by Rabbenu!

Rabbenu sees everything, and hears everything, and he knows everything. This only awakens judgements, when you bring [names and requests] to the Rav. Don’t exchange the Rav for the Rebbe! Only the Rebbe is the Rebbe, only Rabbenu, he’s doing all the miracles and wonder, that whoever was in Eretz Yisrael, no rocket fell.[8] The rockets fell in Jordan, in every place – except for Eretz Yisrael.

This was all Rabbenu’s doing.

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And stand up, and don’t sing ‘or zaruya’.

Don’t sing emet and emuna, and no other song, either. And not odeh la E-l, and not Adon Olam, and not Yedid Nefesh – no song should be sung, to ‘enlarge’.[9]

Don’t scream out HaRav! HaRav! HaRav! HaRav! HaRav sees everyone, we are coming to the Rebbe, not to the Rav. We need to always now that we are coming to the Rebbe, and that the Rebbe sees everyone.

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And everyone should pray in the Kloiz, with dread and awe.

Look in the siddur, pay attention to the shaliach tzibbur, to the congregation. Whoever can’t pray, so then he should listen to everyone else, he should pray in his heart, with everyone. And don’t yell at the Rav, and don’t stand on chairs in order to see the Rav, and pray like everyone else.

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It’s forbidden [to stand out].

The Shunamite Woman said, I don’t want to separate myself, don’t mention me.

So it’s written there [in the Zohar], in Parshat Beshalach, that if a person stands out on Rosh Hashana, then he awakens judgements upon himself. He already can’t sweeten any harsh judgements.

“B’toch ami anochi yoshevet”.[10]

So, it’s forbidden to mention any names to the Rav.

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And no woman should come [to Uman for Rosh Hashana].

And the women who already arrived, should return home for Rosh Hashana. Because they causing 50,000 men to stumble…[creating] billions of demons and evil spirits.

And even if Sarah Imenu came here, it would be forbidden to see her, and it would be forbidden for her to pray in the Tziyun [on Rosh Hashana], in the kibbutz. She is obligated to return to Jerusalem – also Sarah, also Rivka, also Rachel, also Leah.

Because until techiat hametim, the body is surrounded by billions of demons, until the revival of the dead, when we will have totally new bodies, like Adam HaRishon before the sin.

So no woman should remain, every one should go home. 

Translated from Rasisei Tal #84.

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FOOTNOTES:

[1] Tehillim 114: 4. This psalm is talking about what happened when the Jews left Egypt.

[2] Referring to the Amorites, who were crushed to death in the mountains when they moved against each other.

[3] Parshat Chukat, Numbers 21: 14-15: “From there they journeyed and encamped on the other side of the Arnon – which is in the wilderness – that juts out from the border of the Amorite; for Arnon is the border of Moab, between Moab and the Amorite. Therefore it is said in the book of the Wars of Hashem: The gift of Reeds and the rivers of Arnon; the waterfall of the rivers when it veered to dwell at Ar.”

[4] From the High Holy Day additions to the Amidah.

[5] Psalm 118:21. “I thank You, for You have answered me and [You have] become for me a salvation.”

[6] Psalm 118:23. “This came from Hashem; it is wondrous in our eyes.”

[7] Psalm 118:24. “ This is the day that Hashem made, we will rejoice and be glad in it.

[8] It’s hard to know what the Rav actually means here, although certainly, the casualties from the ‘rockets’ were relatively very small.

[9] I.e. Shuvu Banim shouldn’t sing any of the songs they customarily sing before prayers with the Rav, in order to show respect for the Rav.

[10] 2 Kings 4:13. “And she said, ‘I dwell among my own people.’”

I had a few days off, up North.

Honestly, I could have a few weeks off at the moment, and it probably still wouldn’t be enough.

But slowly, slowly, I am feeling like the strength is coming back, enough to keep going at least with the day to day.

So, slow posting here on the blog at the moment, except, I made a commitment to myself to share at least one thing from the Rav, and one thing from Rebbe Nachman every single week, and I realised we got to Friday, and I didn’t do that yet.

So, let’s start with the ‘one thing’ from Rabbenu, first.

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The following comes from a collection of Breslov writings called Kuntres haHosafot, gathered together by R Avraham Chazan, and stuck up on Wikisource in Hebrew by a Na-Nach guy, HERE.

The translations to English are automatic AI, but pretty good.

And here is the one that took my eye, today:

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23 Rabbeinu z”l said that Mashiach will have to do more work with the Chassidic imposters than…

Rabbeinu z”l said that Mashiach will have to do more work with the Chassidic mefursamim shel sheker/ imposters, than the work he’ll have with the fraye/”liberated” [secularist] and apostate Jews. Because the latter want to understand only with wisdom, and Mashiach will be superbly wise and will show them by wisdom that he is right, so they’ll acknowledge him.

But those Chassidic fakers who believe in emunoth cozeviyyot/false faiths, when Mashiach shows to their eyes how it is, they’ll reply, “I believe” (Ikh glayb). Even though he shows to his eyes what the truth is, he still believes (in the sheker) even though he understands intellectually.

He said it in these words, (Az Mashiach vet hobn mer arbayt mit di falshe chasidim vi mit di frayen, varn di fraye vet er vizin mit chokhma veln zey mode zayn. aber di falshe chasidim vifil er vet oys vizin der emet veln zey zagn “Ikh glayb,” klomar chotchye ikh farshtay, nit azoi glayb ikh fart). H”Y guard us from this! Amen ken yehi ratzon.


רבינו ז”ל אמר שלמשיח יהי’ יותר עבודה עם החסידים המפורסמים של שקר, מהעבודה שיהי’ לו עם החפשיים והפיקורסים כי הם רוצים להבין רק על פי חכמה ומשיח יהיה חכם גדול ויראה להם על פי חכמה שהצדק איתו אז יודו לו. אבל החסידים השקרנים הנ”ל שהם מאמינים באמונות כוזביות. וכשמשיח יראה לו בעין שהוא כך יענה ויאמר לו אני מאמין (“איך גלייב”). אעפ”י שיראה בעיניו שהאמת כך אבל הוא מאמין בהשקר אעפ”י שהוא נגד השכל ובזה”ל אמר. (“אז משיח וועט האבין מער ארבייט מיט דיא פאלשע חסידים וויא מיט דיא פרייע. ווארין די פרייע וועט ער ווייזין מיט חכמה וועלין זייא מודה זיין אבער דיא פאלשע חסידים ויפול ער וועט זייא אוס ווייזין דעם אמת וועלין זייא זעגין “איך גלייב” כלמור חאטשי איך פאר שטייא ניט אזוי גלייב איך פארט”). השי”ת ישמרנו מזה ומזה אכי”ר.

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There is really only one source of the ‘fine, Hungarian wine’.

Appearances notwithstanding.

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Something else, last week my husband pointed out the verse in Tehillim that talks about ‘mountains melting like wax’.

It’s in Kabbalat Shabbat, Tehillim 97, which goes like this:

Hashem has reigned, let the world rejoice. Let the numerous islands be glad. Cloud and dense darkness surround Him, righteousness and justice are the foundation of His throne.

Fire goes before Him, and consumes everything around His enemies. His lightning bolts lit up the world, the inhabitants of the earth saw, and trembled.

Mountains melted like wax before Hashem, the Lord of all the earth.

The heavens did declare His righteousness, and all the peoples did see His glory.

All those who worship idols, and pride themselves with worthless gods, will be humiliated…

…O lovers of Hashem, despise evil!

He guards the lives of his chassidim [look it up, that’s what it says] and rescues them from the hand of the wicked.

Or tzaruya laTzaddik, v’le’yishrei lev simcha…

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In case you didn’t know already, or tzaruya is the song they sing by the Rav before davening, sometimes for 40 mins…

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The mountains are melting in Nepal and Tibet, home of the Boodha; apparently, the mountains are also now starting to ‘melt’ in the Alps too, just not yet on the same scale, and also in Spain.

We live in interesting times…

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The Rav put out a recording from Uman this week, where he warned that people need to focus on being by Rebbe Nachman whilst in Uman, and no-one else – including the Rav himself.

We are there to crown Hashem King of the world on Rosh Hashana.

The Rav also warned that Uman Rosh Hashana is no place for women, and if any women went, they should turn around and come home by Rosh Hashana.

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It’s very interesting, that the one year when I went to Uman for Rosh Hashana, that three week odyssey when I spent a day with my kids, alone, under armed guard in a Kiev airport, ahead of the first Covid Rosh Hashana – that was the most horrible Rosh Hashana I ever, ever had.

I felt like it took me three years to recover, spiritually, and I really wondered, if I should have actually gone there, as a woman, for Rosh Hashana, even with the best of intentions.

So, each person will do as they see fit, but let’s just say I have absolutely no plans to ever go back to Uman for Rosh Hashana, ever.

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Shabbat shalom, my sweet readers – and friends.

Each time I debate whether I should just close the blog down permanently, I remember how many good, amazing, sincere Jews I have met, including in person, from the blog.

And that keeps me going.

A very important shiur from the Rav, before he left to Uman.

Shiur on Shabbat Parshat Ki Tetzei, 5786

It’s sakanat nefashot (endangering life) to not pray in the Kloiz [in Uman] on Rosh Hashana!

It’s the Days of Judgment, and it’s forbidden to ‘stick out’.[1]

It’s written in the Zohar, that the Shunamite Woman said: Don’t remember me! That no-one should see me! I shouldn’t exist, at all!

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And it’s written here[2] that it’s forbidden to stick out.

[A person] should include themselves with the tzibbur (community), and nullify himself, mamash. And so, we don’t sing on Rosh Hashana ‘Odeh la E-l’, and not Adon Olam – just nullify ourselves to everyone else.

Because these are the Days of Judgment, there are such [harsh] judgments, and it’s impossible to know what the next day will bring.

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Now, many children have died.

The boy Moshe Galinsky, and another one, from Modi’in Ilit, his family, Karni[3], a boy aged 7[4]. He capsized with the kayak in the Jordan [River].

And another child, they forgot him in the car.[5] The car reached 200 degrees heat, he died.

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And in Chicago, two drowned, and brother and sister,[6] aged 19 and 21.

And another child drowned in the pool in Sdot Micah.[7] There are a lot of villas in Sdot Micah. Each time that they want to find me a secret place, they take me to Sdot Micah. Next time, when I’m leaving the house, wait for me at the Kiryat Malachi junction.

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So, it’s really sakanat nefashot to stand out, on Rosh Hashana.

We need to underline the words, here, these are the words that are written here:

“And he is in danger, chas v’shalom.

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So, we’ve got to eight children who have died:

Moshe Galinski and Karni, and another two, brother and sister, in Michigan, in Chicago. You’re American, so you know [the area].[8] And also, the grandson of HaRav Arush drowned in Mexico.[9]

And also this week, on Monday, another child was run over, he was called Fisch.[10]

And another two brothers, aged four and 12[11] – also from Bet Shemesh. A neighbor came, with a grudge in his heart, and he stabbed them.[12] The child who was 4 was saved, and the child who was 12, he is already in the next world.

He said that he wanted to rectify Adam and Chava.

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It’s truly sakanat nefashot on Rosh Hashana. It’s sakanat nefashot.

And we don’t pray in any other place, only in the Kloiz.

Rabbenu is not to be found in any other place, only in the Kloiz. Also in Uman, Rabbenu is not to be found – except, in the Kloiz. Not even in the Tziyun.

We don’t go to the Tziyun [on Rosh Hashana itself], only on the eve of Rosh Hashana. On Rosh Hashana itself, Rabbenu is not to be found in the Tziyun. Rabbenu is only to be found in the Kloiz.

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And there is no such thing, as two kibbutzim [gatherings, on Rosh Hashana. The secular z-ists ‘borrowed’ the word from Uman and Breslov…]

There is only one kibbutz, only in the Kloiz.

And even if it’s easier to pray in other places – but, Rabbenu is only to be found in the Kloiz! We only pray in the Kloiz.

We start at 6am, until 4pm. And this year, we won’t have tashlik on the first day. Who arranged this, that there will not be tashlik? The Bagatz organised it, that there won’t be tashlik on the first day, only on the second day.

So, there will be tashlik on the second day, and after tashlik, there will be a shiur in the Kloiz.[13]

Shkeia is at 7pm, so until 7pm, there is a shiur in the Kloiz. And after this, after ma’ariv, we return.

There are trains to Bucharest, or Moldova.

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Excerpted and translated from Shivivei Or #471.

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What I took from this, is that even though Baruch Hashem it seems the Rav is now in Uman for Rosh Hashana (even though the ‘news’ is not telling anyone that…) – there is still a lot of work to do, and we aren’t out of the woods just yet.

The judgments are still huge, there is still so much din flying around.

And all of us have to continue to do our part, in whatever small way, to make the necessary teshuva, and to keep going with the prayers, TKs and hitbodedut, to give the tzaddikim the spiritual ‘fuel’ they need to keep fighting the battles on our behalf.

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That list of dead children is kinda shocking.

And it’s only gotten even longer, in the two weeks since the Rav made these remarks, the below are just from today’s headlines:

There is no room for complacency.

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FOOTNOTES:

[1] I.e. to make yourself conspicuously not part of the crowd, apart from Am Yisrael.

[2] In the commentary on the Zohar ‘Halichot Olam’.

[3] https://www.jfeed.com/news-israel/tjif2b – this was Elchanan Karni, 12, student at a Breslov yeshiva in Modi’in Illit.

[4] Referring to Moshe Galinsky, who was hit by a bus. https://www.israelnationalnews.com/news/429539

[5] https://www.thejc.com/news/israel/israeli-baby-dies-after-parent-leaves-her-in-car-u021ms23 – By the end of July, three kids in Israel had died in hot cars, just in that single month.

[6] HEARTBREAKING DOUBLE TRAGEDY: South Bend Brother and Sister Killed in Lake Michigan Boating Accident | Matzav.com

[7] TRAGEDY: Two-Year-Old Dies After Drowning In Vacation-Rental Pool – The Yeshiva World. – While I was tracking this down, another story came up of a toddler who almost drowned to death in the same Moshav in 2020, but that time, the story had a happy ending. I wonder why six years on, we are not getting the same miracles.

[8] They drowned in Lake Michigan.

[9] https://www.theyeshivaworld.com/news/israel-news/2583572/tragedy-in-mexico-4-year-old-grandson-of-harav-shalom-arush-drowns-during-family-vacation.html

[10] Four-year-old boy killed in traffic accident in Beit Shemesh | Israel National News

[11] He was actually 7 years old.

[12] 2 children stabbed in Beit Shemesh, 1 killed | Israel National News

[13] The Rav gave this hint he would be in Uman, the week before he left and actually got there.

It’s hard to believe, but Baruch Hashem, the Rav is in Uman.

I got sent some video, including this one:

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Honestly?

I’m speechless.

In a good way.

There really is no yeoush in the world.

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Here’s what was sent out on the Rav’s whatsapp group, which give a lot of chizzuk:

After six years — our holy teacher, the Tzaddik, Rav Eliezer Berland shlita, has arrived in Uman! Six years we waited. Six years we prayed. Six years it did not happen — and this year the Tzaddik made it to Uman!

There are no words for this simcha. This is good news for us, for all of Am Yisrael, and for the whole world.

This is going to be an amazing year — a year of yeshuos, a year of blessing, a year of geulah!

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Amen.

I was pretty shocked by that footage coming out of Nepal / Tibet of the huge floods.

I basically check SOTT, and PalmTreeofDevorah blog as my ‘news’ these days, between them, I get enough of a flavour to satisfy the news impulse that I’ve been trying to throttle back, for years.

The footage was shocking to me.

One moment, these villages and buildings and infrastructure are all standing – and the next, they are gone.

They say 400 people are confirmed dead so far, that footage suggests this is going to be the tip of the iceberg. I’m just finding the whole thing shocking.

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A couple of weeks ago, someone put up comment up on the bottom of a Dutchsince video update forecasting earthquakes, where they basically said the world is being ‘purified’ according to the kashrut laws – either by fire, or by immersion in water.

This comment also struck me very forcibly.

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My parents’ apartment building in the UK burned down a couple of months ago, they are still homeless.

A few days ago, my good friend had a bad fire at her house here in Israel, and she’s now temporarily homeless, until the insurance figures out the shiputz.

I went to a Chinese medicine lady a couple of days ago, who told me what I’d been feeling for months, namely that I am totally ‘burned out’.

Fire…

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Now, the floods in Nepal.

The very strange weather here in Israel, with one August rainstorm two weeks ago, and now, another forecast for Motzash / Sunday that they are saying could be big enough to cause flash floods.

In Israel.

In August.

Water spouts bizarrely destroying French villages, floods in Spain…

Water…

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Back in the middle of June, the Rav started dropping some very big hints that the earthquakes, seismic activity and ‘weird weather’ was about to start picking up again.

You can read the whole thing HERE.

The Rav began by saying this:

Whoever draws close to Rabbenu (Rebbe Nachman of Breslov) is not to be found, at all, in this world.

I.e. when that tidal wave comes crashing down the gorge, anyone who is stuck close to Rabbenu will be lifted clear – they won’t be ‘in this world’, so they won’t be affected by what’s going on.

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Next, the Rav starts telling a story from Rebbi Shimon, about people who get lost in the desert, and it’s nearly Shabbat – i.e. very nearly the time of the 6,000 year, the ‘Shabbat of the world’, or geula – but they are totally lost in the desert, riding around on their fancy, expensive horses (= ‘gashmius’).

They meet someone hobbling around on crutches, and that poor man on crutches tells them he’s going to rescue them, and get them into a safe space, ahead of Shabbat:

He said to them: hold onto my belt, and I will fly with you, and within a second we will reach an inhabited place!

They didn’t understand what he was talking about.
They said to him, you are talking nonsense, us, we have horses, and you don’t even have legs! You are walking along with crutches!

[He replied] Grab on to my belt, and watch what happens!

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This is Rabbenu, Breslov, and in our generation, the easiest way to ‘grab on’ to Rebbe Nachman is via Rav Berland, his main ‘student in the flesh’ in our generation.

Yeah, that poor, old, disgraced man ‘on crutches’, literally and figuratively, the one with the damaged legs and feet.

Just like the Seventh Beggar, the Beggar who has no feet.

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The lost travellers decide, what do they have to lose, by grabbing on to the old man’s belt?!

Either it will work, or it won’t.

So, they grab on, and immediately get taken to an orchard (= kabbalistic concept, place of deep wisdom where humility is the only way you can come out unscathed, instead of going mad, dying, or even worse, becoming an atheist, God forbid.)

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It’s a side note, but the ‘pardes’ is a great fit for Shuvu Banim.

Ha mavin yavin.

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And then, there are 300 Torah students there, repeating over and over again:

Haval havalim, amar Kohelet. Hakol havalim, hakol haval.

The world is all pointless and meaningless – if a person isn’t doing Torah and mitzvot sincerely.

‘The world’ literally doesn’t exist, except as the backdrop against whic a person can refine and develop their good middot and emuna.

That’s it.

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And then, the Rav starts talking about mountains moving, the earth opening up – and how it’s impossible to conquer Eretz Yisrael.

In ‘Sha’arei Tzedek’ [in Jerusalem] the ground opened up in the carpark. Three cars fell into it. The ground, when it wants to, it opens. The ground moves, the ground opens.

You are walking along, and suddenly you fall over – this is because the ground moved. It rose up against him. You are thinking a not-good thought – so boom, you trip on the stairs. You break your head.

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The Rav continues:

The earth moves every second, it moves by itself, it contains lifeforce.

And then explains more:

So, the earth each time can move by itself.

It sees everything that a person does. A person goes to eat from the Etz HaDaat – move, a little bit! Make an earthquake, and he’ll fall over, he’ll break his hand and his leg.

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At the bottom of the post, I wrote this:

I took away from this shiur, that we can expect some more big earthquakes to start again soon…

Not because I’m a navi, or anything approaching a navi, in a million years.

But simply, because I read the Rav and I try to understand his hints.

Like everyone else could do, too, if they would only climb off their high horses, galloping around lost in the wilderness, and hold on to the Beggar’s belt.

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The Rav is currently AWOL again.

The prayers down on Ido HaNavi are cancelled until after Rosh Hashana, word on the street is that the Rav is making his attempt to get to Uman, for Rosh Hashana 5787.

If we really understood, just how important it is for the Rav to get to Uman for Rosh Hashana, we would be doing 18 TKs a day and six hours of hitbodedut.

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I’m not there myself, right now.

I am so tired, inside, from all the balagan of the last few years, all the war here, all the madness generally, all the disappointment that geula hasn’t (yet…) shown up, as expected, that I can manage precisely one TK a day at the moment.

But, I really, really, really am praying, hoping, that the Rav gets to Uman this year.

Honestly?

It seems impossible.

It seems futile.

But, if I learn one thing from the Rav, it’s truly the living embodiment of there is no yeoush in the world!!!

We have to do our bit, and God will do as He sees fit.

But we have to do our bit, whatever that actually is.

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So, these are my thoughts on the seismic activity, as clearly predicted by the Rav, three months ago.

He saw what was coming down the pipe, and he clearly set out the solution:

Find the hidden tzaddik hobbling around on crutches, and grab on to his belt.

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The rest, is up to you.

Still filling in the backstory, between Parts 8-9.

In this part, which was actually the trickiest one to do so far, for a whole bunch of reasons, a storm blows down the Burgher’s Son’s little oasis of trees.

It’s his ‘safe place’, his comfort zone, the place where he was just going to surf Youtube videos and reminisce about the ‘good old times’, and feel sorry for himself for the rest of his life.

But, God had other plans.

God sent a massive storm to destroy the whole place, and uproot all the trees:

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So now, the Burgher’s Son has a choice:

Either, he can go literally insane, trying to find the Princess’s Note – which anyway, he wasn’t going to do anything with, because he’d already got yeoush and given up on ever fixing the problem of how to marry her, when the Emperor wanted him dead.

Or, he can gird his loins, and decide to head back into the so-called ‘civilised world’ again – and whatever was going to happen, let it happen!!!

Because we can’t spend our lives running away from reality, or moping, or engaging in avoidant behaviours where we just keep ducking the work God actually sent us down here to do in the world.

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So, the Burgher’s Son, out of his sense of yeoush, actually, decides to ‘go back to the normal world’.

And there, he decides that if he can’t have what he wants, i.e. to marry the Princess – let him at least make some money, in the process, and try to live a decent life.

That’s where we’re now holding in Rabbenu’s story:

The Burgher’s Son, who represents the Jewish people, decides to cash-in on his wisdom and knowledge, to live a good, secular life, because anyway – nothing is ever going to change.

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Hashem is so clever.

Dafka, it’s the Burgher’s Son yeoush that actually ends up fixing the problem for everyone.

But, I am getting ahead of the story.

Shavua Tov!

The Rav put out a couple of important messages about getting to Uman for 5787, which I am translating below.

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August 2, 2026, 26th Av, 5786

Message #1 from the Rav, about Uman 5787:

All the geula, in order that there won’t be a war, that they won’t launch drones here, that they won’t suddenly close the Kotel for us – all this only depends upon Uman.

It only depends upon the holy Tziyun.

A million people want to get to Rabbenu, mamash, a million people. And there will be 200,000 flights, that will make roundtrips, 10 roundtrips a day. And like this, you can bring a million people, and all of Uman will be vacated.

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When we were the va’ad in Uman, there was a plan to evacuate the whole of Uman for three days.

The whole of Uman is only three days, from Thursday night until Sunday night. Friday, Shabbat and Sunday – it’s possible to clear out the whole of Uman for three days.

The Rebbe said, you have to come to the Tziyun, mamash, because only when you come to the Tziyun, then the Rebbe can work all the tikkunim. All the tikkunim are only done at the Tziyun HaKadosh.

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There, all the tikkunim of all the incarnations from Adam HaRishon are done. Every person was part of the sin of Adam HaRishon, and was part of the sin of the sale of Yosef.

Therefore, we need to always know that we need to travel to Rabbenu, to travel to Rabbenu at any cost!

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The Rebbe – Rabbi Natan said, I will go to the Rebbe, even if I had to walk on knives!

Even on knives!

A person needs to be in Uman with all of Am Yisrael, no-one should be missing.

“They counted the number of their army, and no-one was missing.”[1]

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MESSAGE #2:

August 9th, 2026, 3rd Elul, 5786

Everyone without exception must come to the gathering in Hevron, which will open the path the Uman.

We come to open the gates of Uman, also for the Rav, and also for all of AM Yisrael. In the merit of the prayers in Hevron, all the gates will open.

Everyone has to come to Uman, this is the sole tikkun, there is no other tikkun. There is no alternative. Not Jerusalem.

The Rebbe said only Uman! And not Jerusalem.

All those who talk about [staying in] Jerusalem [on Rosh Hashana], they are making a grave mistake, and they will be judged on it – that they think it’s possible to hold the kibbutz in Jerusalem. There is no such thing!

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R Levi Yitzhak [Bender] wanted all the time to travel to Uman.

But in the end, he didn’t want to travel on a forged passport, because that is a lifetime in prison, or even getting shot.

Everyone should register today for Uman, it doesn’t matter how much it costs. In the merit of this, everyone will be millionaires, and everyone will get out of their debts, and have apartments.

People don’t have apartments!

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A person needs to know that the tikkun is only Uman.

All those who are confused, they will be judged on this. Korach was also confused, they also made a golden calf, because Moshe didn’t come down.

We know that he came down, but they didn’t know that he came down. Regarding this [the sin of the Golden Calf], I can still forgive them for it, they were bewildered. Moshe wasn’t there, “arise, and make for us a god who will walk before us.”[2]

They brought down the ox from the merkava (heavenly chariot)…

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But here [regarding Uman], there is nothing to be confused about.

Here, R Levi Yitzhak would speak day and night – only Uman!!!

Because he was the main leader, he founded Breslov and he brought 20 guys from Ponovezh, and this is how he began to lay the new foundations for Breslov, after it was almost wiped off the face of the earth.

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So now, a person needs to know, only Uman!!!

The Rebbe said, only the place where the Tzaddik is hidden / buried. I can do everything.

The Rebbe said, I’m even able to make the goyim do teshuva. That’s what’s written.

So for us, he can’t make us do teshuva?!?!

Come to me, you’ll see so much mesirut nefesh [is required]!

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You sit at home, eating schnitzels, cholent, bourekas and kreplach…

On erev Yom Kippur, we eat kreplach, also on Purim. On erev Yom Kippur, you eat all the delicacies – chickens, hamburgers.

And then, you want a tikkun?!

What?!

Do something! Travel  and cross borders.

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Now, the harder it is, the more vessels you will have [to hold] the or ein sof.[3]

Hashem sees that you used to come easily; you got on a plane, and within two hours you were there. So once, Shuvu Banim arranged a flight – they arranged it direct to Uman, mamash, all of Shuvu Banim were there, within two hours they were in Uman. Within half an hour, they were already at the Tziyun.

They came back and travelled, as if they enjoying an afternoon stroll on Shabbat.

So the Rebbe saw, and the Rebbe wasn’t able to do the tikkunim!

If they don’t create vessels to receive, [if they don’t travel] with some more mesirut nefesh! [Like] travelling during Corona. During Corona they slept in the sadot[4], so now, everyone needs to know that the Tikkun is also in Uman.

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Anyone who confuses you, and tells you stories, you should know that he will be judged on this – and also, you will be judged on it.

The Rebbe does not excuse this.

Anyone who says that Hashem overlooks [sins], he too will be ‘overlooked’. [A quote from Chazal]

Hashem doesn’t back down on anything.

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If the Rav doesn’t manage to get there [to Uman] – this is also a tikkun. A great tikkun.

But the Rav travels, the Rav tries to cross the borders. I passed through [the last time] and they made me go back.

We were already by the Rebbe a million times. We travelled when they said to us each time, tomorrow, you’re going to Siberia!

[Each time they said] ah, it’s you?! The same person?! You should know that next time, you are going to Siberia. Next time, it will be Siberia!

I told them, you’ll be going to Siberia, not me! Everything will rebound upon you.

“Their swords will enter their own hearts and their bows will be broken.”[5]

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Everyone should go to Uman, without questions. At all.

And only Hevron opens the way. The trip to Hevron is in order to arrive at Uman. Everyone has to go [to Hevron]. We begin the Ma’ariv prayers at 8pm, and by 11, everyone will be free to go.

Translated from Rasisei Tal, # 82.

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FOOTNOTES:

[1] See Parshat Mattos, 31:48-49: “The commanders of the thousands in the legions, the officers of the thousands and the officers of the hundreds, approached Moses. They said to Moses, ‘Your servants took a census of the men of war under our command, and not a man of us is missing.”

[2] Shmot 32:1.

[3] I.e. it’s the difficulties of the journey, dafka, that create the spiritual vessels required to ‘catch’ more of the blessings and tikkunim available in Uman on Rosh Hashana.

[4] The word means both ‘airports’, and also ‘fields’. In the year when the kibbutz in Uman was effectively cancelled because of Covid, in 2020, many people were caught in no-mans-land between Belarus and Ukraine and slept in fields for 2-3 nights. While others were stuck in airports, and also refused entry.

[5] Tehillim 37:15.

Sometimes, Hashem sends you just what you need in unexpected ways.

I was watching more Anna Runkel, when this popped up in the feed:

It’s really, really good.

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BH, it’s helping me to feel a little calmer, in a profound way.

Taking the sympathetic nervous system out of constant overdrive, and overwhelm.

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I was talking to my neighbour, an art therapist yesterday, about how I think that half of Israel has PTSD.

She actually thinks all of Israel has PTSD, on some level.

She was also talking about Covid, and how angry she is that she got scammed into taking 3 shots, because they told her at work that otherwise she’d be fired.

How did we all fall for that?! she asked me, clearly very upset about the whole thing.

How did they manage to brainwash everyone into going along with them?!

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Ah, that’s a whole conversation, isn’t it?

I am still seeing a few of the ‘leaders’ who were pushing Covid shots hard giving impressive sounding ‘shiurim’ on Youtube.

Personally, I can’t stand listening for even a second.

It’s an integrity thing – if someone could be so ‘wrong’ about something like that, and they never made teshuva about it and admitted they made a mistake, how can anyone trust their judgement?

Their ‘Torah’?

It’s possible I’m being too judgmental about all this, it’s not easy to row back in public like that, I know. It’s a very hard test.

At the same time, if people are putting themselves out there as leaders and mentors, then their personal integrity has to be a real cut above the rest, to justify the influence they are trying so hard to exert.

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Here’s to calmer times.

Here’s to gentle revolutions, that change what’s required within us, without the need for such violent storms and situations outside, all the time.

Shabbat shalom.