Another excerpt from the Rav’s shiurim from last week.

As always, there are a ton of clues contained here, about what was really happening on October 7, 2023.

BH, if I have time, I will translate some more later in the week.


Except of shiur from Oct 30th, 2023

Now, we are seeing ‘a time of great difficulty’ [for Yaakov], that over the course of three days it was impossible to reconquer the kibbutzim.

The government abandoned everyone.

People cried out for help for 40 hours, 30 hours, 22 hours. People cried out via their smartphones, there didn’t have batteries, they didn’t have electricity, it was impossible to call, even.

Whoever could call, said ‘come’! ‘Save us!’

The commanders forbid the soldiers from entering the kibbutzim.

The soldiers advanced, but it was impossible to enter, because in each kibbutz there were 500 terrorists. No end of terrorists! It took three days to reconquer again – instead of defending them, in the first place.


And they telephoned, and said 5,000 people are crossing the border.

There is no fence, it’s the most elaborate fence in the word – 50 billion dollars. If there was…

When they give 100,000 to a yeshiva, the whole world goes mad – ‘these leeches’, ‘these bloodsuckers’. Lapid goes out of his mind.

And here, they spent 50 billion on a paper fence. If they had made a fence out of cardboard, from paper, it would already have been much better. There is nothing left of the fence.


Now, at the Erez Crossing there has already been three hours of war.

Because they wanted to break through a path from the Erez Crossing.

There is no fence, there is nothing.


And this is what each person needs to know, that now it’s a ‘time of difficulty for Yaakov’.

There is no government, a government of chilonim, it’s worse than….

They abandoned their brothers.

For 40 hours, people waited for the army to come – and it didn’t come. And in the meantime, they burned everyone alive, there are no houses, there is nothing.

It’s possible to build a house in one day. These days, they already have pre-fab walls, in a day, you can build a house.

[The refugees from the Gaza envelope] are sleeping five people in a room of one square meter. They aren’t giving them food, they aren’t giving them anything.

They are treating them worse than monkeys, worse than cockroaches, is how they are treating them.


A government like this has never been since the creation of the world, that is abusing people who went through a Shoah.

Today they are ‘evacuated refugees’, they are in camps for displaced people. And however much food you bring them, it’s not enough. The children are orphans, or they no longer have a father, or there is no mother, or both of them are missing.

They already turned into ashes.


And so it’s an obligation for each person to know that this time is a ‘time of trouble’.

We are obligated [to act accordingly and constantly recite tehillim]! This is d’oraita! This is what the Rambam says, this is d’oraita!

To say a chapter of tehillim every second, and another chapter of tehillim. And a girl who can recite three chapters of tehillim, will be blessed, because people have to still attend the seminaries.


In the ‘Sharon’ [region], they already cancelled all the classes, because now they are already scared that they are going to fire a million rockets.

They have maybe 100,000 rockets. Every day, they are bringing into there another 10,000 rockets. There is not supervision, they have tunnel-highways.

Egypt doesn’t care, they are happy, and all the Strip is full of rockets. They are firing rockets non-stop.

Except for [at] Jerusalem, where rockets don’t reach to here.

Because we are exactly in the centre of the country, the furthest from Gaza, and the furthest from Lebanon.

The whole North is under rockets, the whole South is under rockets, [Kibbutz] Kissufim is under rockets.

They are being showered down with no end, a ‘rain’ of rockets. We read [the bracha in the Shmoneh Esrei] “and give dew and rains of blessing” – so we got rockets.


“And this thing is from the ways of teshuva and it’s for everyone.” – Rambam

Such that the moment that this is a ‘time of difficulty for Yaakov’, we need to feel the suffering of Am Yisrael.

130,000 people without homes, without apartments, without clothes, who fled in their pyjamas.

Suddenly in the middle of being asleep there was a siren. They thought it was just a regular siren, suddenly they see rain – a rain of rockets!

“And give dew and rains of blessing.”

They still hadn’t said this blessing. This is only said in mussaf, but already at 6.15am, there was already a rain of rockets.

We need to cry out – [about all suffering].

If we see Am Yisrael suffering, then we need to say tehillim.

Any girls who are able to say three books of tehillim, this is above everything.

The bachorim (young men) should break their Xiomis, because this Xiomi brings all the punishments. They see nude pictures, and immediately a thousand soldiers are killed at that moment.


We are in danger at every moment, that they will kill 1,000 soldiers.

Because Hamas there, they say it’s 40,000, but really, it’s 100,000. All of them are armed with the most up-to-date weapons, because Iran gave them the most up-to-date weapons.

And even though we are here in Jerusalem, which is the most protected – Jerusalem protects us and guards over us – we still need to pray for all of Am Yisrael.

This is d’oraita.

To feel the suffering, as though we are in the Shoah.


That there are no homes.

That they took people out of their homes while they were sleeping. And they put on minivans in their pyjamas. They were put on minivans and megashmim.

They went barefoot. They don’t have shoes. They don’t have clothes – nothing! The babies don’t have diapers.

“And this thing is from the ways of teshuva…. The moment that we see that this is a time of suffering for Yaakov, everyone is obligated to cry out.” – Rambam

And to say tehillim endlessly.


And to cry out over it, and to blow the shofar, and to know that all of this is the result of their bad deeds.” – Rambam

All of this is because they beat them with blows [in Tel Aviv on Yom Kippur].


Ad kan, from the Rav.

BH, even with all the censorship, the questions are starting to pop up even in the mainstream media in Israel, about what really happened.

This guy is talking about the 20 tatzpaniot (observers on the border with Gaza, in the army bunkers) who ‘disappeared’ from the Nahal Oz base without a trace.

And also their smartphones disappeared without a trace.

And also, all the cameras in the base ‘disappeared’, together with the footage of who really over-ran the base and killed and kidnapped everyone.

(Google translated from HERE – the video plays in Hebrew.)

Shavua tov.

Half an hour before Shabbat came in here in Jerusalem, my daughter got a phone call.

She was in the middle of doing sponga, with her shabbos songs blaring loudly while I did the washing up.

Then the songs suddenly got turned off, I heard some sniffing noises.

It took me a minute to realise what was going on.

Then, I came out of the kitchen and came to find my kid.

Do you have cold? I asked her.

No answer.

She was turned away from me brushing the floor, so I went back to the sink.

The sniffing noises continued and got louder.

I came back.

Are you crying, poppy?

No answer for a second.

Then, she told me:

Yes, I’m crying.


Long story short, that phone call was telling her that someone she knows well – one of the bosses from her time in Tsfat last year – had just been killed in Gaza.

She burst into loud sobs, sat on the floor and just cried her eyes out for 20 minutes.

My husband took over a frenzied sponga, I tried to do the other bits in the kitchen that she usually finishes up, and my other daughter sat on the floor with her, and tried to comfort her.

Shabbos doesn’t wait for anything.

Not even grief.


10 minutes before it began, she pulled herself together to go and have a shower.

I got changed and we sped off to the Rav, like usual, to participate in the Friday evening prayers.

I just sat there feeling a bit stunned and kind of ’empty-headed’.

I didn’t know the man who was killed, but I know his mother – she used to be the head-teacher in my kids’ school, before she retired.

Then I started crying a bit.

It’s shabbos, we’re not meant to cry on shabbos.

But a few tears still leaked out.


That daughter had a few friends over for Friday night, and by the time I came home, she’d pulled herself together.

Thank God we live in Israel.

Here, people can talk about difficult things without stuffing it all down, but also without totally drowning in misery.

So, the conversation flowed from dead people, to bad jokes about the matzav (very Israeli…) to discussions about how more and more people are just seeing God and turning to God, because there is nothing else to do, right now – plus everything else in between.


When the meal was over, I went to bed early.

I felt so tired.

Today, I got up early and started doing my book of tehillim again.

What else can I do?

The Rav made it very clear, that every second there isn’t another soldier dead, it’s an open miracle.

And that our efforts to up the tznius, and say more tehillim, and ditch the smartphones is what’s really protecting the army – and us – right now.

But each person lost is still a whole world.

And this particular world was married and has two small daughters.

May Hashem avenge his blood.

And the blood of all the other kadoshim we’ve lost so far, in this war.

And may He also have mercy on us very soon, so the ‘evils’ responsible for all this finally are unmasked and removed, and Hashem’s light can shine into even the darkest corners.



  • Maj. (res’) Yedidiah Eliyahu, 25, of Karni Shomron, a fighter in the 8170th Battalion of the Army Corps of Engineers, was killed in battle in the Gaza Strip.


PS: I had some interaction with someone who got sent hatemail about Rav Berland, basically spouting off that ‘three serious batei dins have excommunicated him!!!!’

I’m not going to get into the whole story here that explains very clearly what really happened. If  you are honestly interested in the truth, I suggest you go HERE and download and read all the One in a Generations, but especially number 3 deals with these ‘serious bet dins’.

In the meantime, THIS gives a flavor of what was really going on, snippet:

In recent days, the Breslov Hotline publicized a rare recording of the Elder of the Torah Sages Council, Rav Shimon Baadani tzvk”l who speaks strongly against the Beit Din which put out slander against the Gaon and Tzaddik, Rav Eliezer Berland shlit”a

These are the words of Rav Baadani:

They purposelessly put out [the slander] — everything is falsehood!   I clarified [it] — everything is falsehood!  There’s nothing!  He’s entirely a Tzaddik.  He’s a complete Tzaddik!

Everything, everything — I clarified the matter.  I signed with that Beit Din that signed against him — afterwards, I understood that everything is falsehood.  I erased [my signature].  I said, “I am erasing this — you are liars!!”  Hashem should help… Continue to pray and Hashem will help.


All these ‘serious’ bet dins…. with connections to cover ups and horrible stories all over the Jewish world…. run by ‘grandchildren’ who sign things in the names of people who have alzheimers….

And all operating as part of that well-oiled government-sponsored propaganda machine against the Rav.

But of course, do your own birur and make sure you clarify things really darned well, with what is really happening in this upside-down world.

Because, as is becoming clearer and clearer, your life could really depend on coming to the right conclusions about who to trust, and who to listen to.


Just cutting and pasting this from

It’s very powerful, from October 31, 2023, before the 16 soldiers were killed yesterday.

The Rav is the only source of ‘news’ I trust, at this point.

From HERE.


Moreinu HaRav Eliezer Berland Shlit”a’s pained cry to say Tehilim for the protection of the Jewish people, especially now as our soldiers enter Gaza on the ground:

Now I read the Rambam [Hilchot Ta’aniot 1:1-3]:  It is a positive Torah commandment, that all those who say Tehilim are fulfilling a positive Torah commandment, because now it is “a time of stress for Jacob, but he will be saved from it” (Yirmiyahu 30:7).

50,000 soldiers enter Gaza now.  Every day, they progress only 100 meters.  More than 100 meters isn’t possible.


Already there are two seriously injured.

In the merit that girls took onto [themselves to dress] modestly, and to lengthen their dresses, in the meantime not a single soldier has been killed.

This is something that is above the natural order, itself these are miracles, but this will take a half-year if we progress only 100 meters.  This will take a half-year, and people don’t have a home — 130,000 people without homes, without parents.  The parents were taken — turned into ashes, like in Auschwitz, that they were turned into ashes.

It is impossible to even find the DNA, because the ashes became mixed with bricks and boards, and in cars people were burned.


Everyone fled to cars; then they poured gasoline on them.

They prepared gasoline and ignited all the cars.  Everyone turned into ashes, 300-1000 people turned into ashes.  300 turned into ashes, 300 were murdered at the party, and 300 are captives.

The Radbaz writes in Siman 40 that being captive is worse than death, because it’s impossible to know who they are torturing — the soldiers are certainly being tortured terribly.


So now we are found in a positive commandment.

Every letter of Tehilim that we say now is a positive Torah commandment.

Because now is “a time of distress for Jacob, but he will be saved from it.”  To scream and to blast Chatzotzrot (a type of trumpet prescribed by the Torah).  We need Chatzotzrot with Shofars, that trouble will not come onto the congregation, as it says, “Against an enemy who oppresses you , you shall blast Chatzotzrot” (Bamidbar 10:9).


That for three days it was impossible to retake the kibbutzim.

The government abandoned everything. 

People called for help, the soldiers progressed, but it was impossible to enter, because in every kibbutz there were 500 terrorists, endless terrorists.  It took three days to retake the kibbutzim — instead of protecting them to begin with.


They called, said that 5,000 men were crossing the fence.

There’s no fence, the most sophisticated fence in the world which cost 50 billion dollars.  If they would have given 100,000 shekels to some yeshiva, then the whole world is horrified — “those leeches, those blood-suckers,” Lapid goes out of his mind. 

And here they spent 50 billion on a fence of paper.  If they had made a fence of paper, of cardboard, that would have been a lot better.

There’s no remnant of the fence.


Now it is “a time of distress for Jacob” — there’s no government.

People waited forty hours for the army to come, and they didn’t come. 

In the meantime, they burned everyone alive.

There’s no houses, nothing.  It’s possible to build a house in a day. 

Five people are sleeping in a room of a square meter.  They don’t give them food, don’t give them anything — such a government has never arisen since the creation of the world, that in this way are abusing people who went through a holocaust.


The children are orphans, either there’s no father or no mother, or both are lacking, have already been turned to ashes.

This is obligatory for each person to know, that now is “a time of distress for Jacob,” and we are obligated from the Torah — like the Rambam says, that this is from the Torah — to say every moment another chapter of Tehilim, and another chapter of Tehilim.


Because now they are afraid that they’ll launch a million missiles.

They have maybe 100,000 missiles.  Egypt doesn’t care, it’s happy.  And the entire strip is full of missiles, they are shooting missiles without end.  Outside of Jerusalem, where missiles are not reaching here, because we are exactly in the middle of Israel, the furthest from Gaza, the furthest from Lebanon.

The entire north is under missile fire, the entire south is under missile fire; Kissufim is under missile fire.


And this is one of the ways of repentance, that at “a time of distress for Jacob,” you need to feel the pain of the Jewish people.

— 130,000 people without houses, without apartments, with clothes — they fled in nightgowns.

We see the Jewish people in distress, then everyone needs to say Tehilim.  And girls who can say three books of Tehilim, this is above everything.


Bachurim [young men] should smash their Xiaomi, because the Xiaomi is bringing on all the calamities.

They see pictures of nudity, then immediately 1,000 soldiers are killed at that moment.  We are every moment in the danger that 1,000 soldiers will be killed.

Because Hamas said that they are 40,000; really, they are 100,000, all of them armed with the most up-to-date weaponry, because Iran gave them the most up-to-date weaponry.


And even though we here in Jerusalem are the most protected — Jerusalem protects us, but we need to pray for all the Jewish people.

This is from the Torah, to feel the pain, that we are like in a holocaust.


This is all because they beat up [worshippers in Tel Aviv on Yom Kippur].

Baruch Hashem, they saw prayer in public in Dizengoff Square, it’s possible to pray.  A thousand girls came to pray.  Then [Tel Aviv mayor] Ron Huldai went out of his mind: A thing such as this, all Tel Aviv is praying all of a sudden — they gave them a murderous beating.

Right after this, they paid.  After ten days, they paid — unfortunately — a price that was too high.

And those who ascended to the Garden of Eden, these were Tinikot Shenishbu [like children taken captive and raised by gentiles and who don’t know not to sin].


They beat them up on Yom Kippur, and there are those did not fast at all.

In Be’eri, maybe five people fasted.  Now they admit everything; they said that everything is because they didn’t fast on Yom Kippur.

A person full of transgressions at least should fast once a year.


Across the road, it’s all Hamas.

Today all the Arabs are Hamas, all of them are with weapons, missiles, cannons.  We’re without anything, we have nothing, like it was in Egypt, that when when they left, [the Egyptians] came with tanks, 600 chariots — we are obligated to say Tehilim at least.


If people don’t scream and shout, and [instead] say that this happened by chance — this is cruelty.

If people see that everyone is in mortal danger, and don’t say Tehilim, the Rambam says that this is the cruelest person that can be.  This is cruelty not to say Tehilim — this is cruelty.  One needs to finish three book of Tehilim every day.

This person who doesn’t pray — this is mamash cruelty, because he caused soldiers to die.


And there will be another calamity, and another calamity, because it’s impossible to know, because in Germany, they said, “This is the last calamity.”  Every moment, they are ready to add another calamity to the calamities, to vanquish us. 

The Germans want to conquer all the Land of Israel anew — this is all so that we will repent.

I have seven more days of a whole book of tehillim to do….

Until the 30 days are up, November 8.

In the middle of all this madness, I also still have what’s left of a wedding to figure out.

And lastly – the news is still lying about absolutely everything.

Nothing has changed on that score, just because we went into Gaza.

But I feel in my soul, that some massive miracles are occurring here, BH.

Whatever is really going on – I’m taking another break from blogging.

If the Rav says something important, I’ll try to  put it up, but otherwise, I am stepping back for a few days.

BH, keep on with the praying and the teshuva.

There is nothing else to do right now.

BH, we will see everything turning around, miraculously, and sweetly, very soon.


I got sent this video from Texas, of a young Jewish woman who was inspired to burn her immodest clothes:


There is currently a totally media black out about what is going on with the hundred thousands of Israeli soldiers they sent into Gaza.

People are very anxious….. because deep, deep down, we all know we can’t trust the people commanding this operation on any level.

But what can we do?

Except pray, pray some more, and make the sort of stunning teshuva that this young lady in Texas, of all places, just did.


I’m now on day 24 of the tehillim…

Yesterday was really hard going, for some reason. It took me FOREVER.

But it gives me some comfort, and stops me going bonkers with worry, that I am at least doing something to beg Hashem to protect our precious nation from the evil satanists trying to destroy us.



I took down what was here in the first draft, after talking to my husband.

In the meantime, take a look at this new project I was sent, called: Mapping the Massacre.

I found where Itzik Levy was killed at the Supernova music festival….

May Hashem avenge his blood.

Very speedily.

Without any more innocent people being murdered or tortured.




Non-stop rolling thunder here in Jerusalem….

I think it’s a good sign.

Remember in Rebbe Nachman’s story of the cripple, the ‘demons’ are scared of the thunder and it kills them?

BH, that is what is going on here today.


Also, a reader sent me this weird piece of information:

The State of Israel incorporated itself at Companies House in the UK as a ltd company, back in February 2023.

Here’s a screenshot:


This is legit – I had it checked out by a UK lawyer.

This is the link, where you can see it for yourself:

Looks like they are literally trying to pull off a hostile takeover of Eretz Yisrael Inc.

But it doesn’t belong to ‘people’.

It belongs to God.

And I am praying, hoping, praying the Baal HaBayit is finally going to show all these evils Who the realy Boss is.



The ‘State of Israel’ seems to have been incorporated by the Israeli Embassy in the UK – 2 Palace Green is the address for the Israel Embassy in London.

They think we are really all just totally stupid.

BH, I’m praying more people will prove them wrong by turning off the news – all of it – connecting back to their souls, and starting to pray more, about what is really going on here.

One is in Hebrew, one in English.

I am keeping my comments very reduced at the moment, for a few different reasons.

These videos show:

  1. Matti Peled – a former Israeli general with control over Gaza who became a ‘peacenik’.

Don’t get triggered by his standard ‘left-wing there is no God in the picture’ lack of understanding about the deeper connection between Jews and Eretz Yisrael.

Rashi summed it up in his first comment to Bereishit, by saying EY basically was someone else’s property right at the beginning – but then God, Who created the world, gave it to the Jewish people.

But Matti Peled didn’t believe in God, and so, he was stuck with a tremendous problem.


Listen, really listen, to what he is saying about corruption in Israel at every level – back in 1992!

31 years ago.

And which country has been pulling the strings here since 1974.


Video 2 – in Hebrew, by Moran Eden Bergman.

Is basically describing how 40 years ago, Gaza was basically secular and mostly peaceful.

And then, it got radicalised by Sheikh Yassin – the ‘Hamas’ guy-puppet, who with a lot of help from America and other people closer to home totally radicalised the area and turned it into a nest of terrorist vipers.

She brings a lot of interesting info together, to show how all these pieces of the puzzle have been  moved around for decades, to create the current awful situation we find ourselves in.

(And again, notice which country has been pulling the strings here since 1974….)


That will do for now.

I need to get back to my tehillim.

They put up  this short clip on


Here’s my basic translation of what he is saying:

Those who are really going along now wanting G-d – whether they are more of a tzaddik, less of a tzaddik,  going up [spiritually], going down – that’s not really what matters right now.

Because first of all we really don’t know who is going up spiritually, who is going down, who is a tzaddik,  who is not a tzaddik. 

For the most part, it’s just imagination and mistaken beliefs.

It doesn’t go according to what we think.


Today, God is saying to us: Ask Me, turn to Me! I am your Father, I love you!

God doesn’t want there to be [harsh] judgements in the world.

God wants to bring all the geula with mercy and kindness. He just wants us to turn to Him.

I have heard from some Tzaddikim, from the Rav (R’ Eliezer Berland Shlita) and also from other tzaddikim, that there is a view that we may have been ‘bound by the judgment’ already, by what happened.

[I.e. October 7th was so horrible, it’s already fulfilled the demand of the din on Am Yisrael, without more terrible things needing to occur – bezrat Hashem!]


There is a view that says if the people of Israel now take to heart all the terrible things that happened, and we awaken [i.e. make teshuva and return to God] – we may have fulfilled the ‘sentence’ demanded by the attribute of [harsh] din.

There was a terrible degree of din in what happened.

I heard that the Rav (Berland) said it sweetened a lot – a lot!

He said that there should have been some even more terrible decree on the people of Israel, and [the events of October 7th] canceled it.


Now, what’s going to happen next?

We really don’t know.

But what we do know is, the nation of Israel is waking up in prayer, and needs to make teshuva.

For those who are very far away [from God] – we should pray for them to wake up.

That’s actually the most important thing.

And there’s nothing to fear, there’s really nothing to fear – nothing!

A man who walks with God has nothing to fear.


I just got sent this.

It has the support of the Rav, too, who is encouraging everyone to participate.

This is the flyer:


Basically, the top bit says that we are in a really dire situation surrounded by enemies in Israel, in a very difficult position for three weeks, and we really need a ton of Heavenly compassion, to get out of this.

The bottom bit, tachlis, says that today, October 30th, they are calling for a global prayer rally.

It’s at 4pm Israel time, 10am New York Time.


They are asking people to say the following tehillim together:








Then if you’re in a minyan of men, I think it’s saying recite the 13 attributes (? – can readers help me out here, I’m not good with yeshiva short hand).

And then, to recite the Acheinu Bnei Yisrael prayer.

And then, recite the Parshat Ketoret.


Pass it around to as many people as you can, please.

‘Together’, we can win…. but only if we’re joining that ‘together’ with Hashem, via tefillot and sincere teshuva.

Last Thursday, I told one of my friends in Bet Shemesh about the Rav’s ‘push’ to say more tehillim.

My friend is Chabad, not Breslov.

She has five small kids at home – all under her feet more than usual, especially with the war.

But she was feeling sad and apathetic last week, so I told her do something! Even if you just say a couple of tehillim, you’ll start to feel way better, that you are doing something positive to get this situation turned around!


Yesterday, she called me and told what had happened.

Even though she was totally exhausted Friday night when she finally had a bit of peace, she told me she spent an hour just saying some tehillim.

You can’t even begin to calculate the mesirut nefesh involved with her doing that, it’s off the scale.


Sunday morning, her husband decided to go and exercise for the first time in six months.

He  took his bike – and was involved in an accident that threw him up into the air, where he landed on his head, with not even a bike helmet.

BH – he is totally, 100% fine.

My friend is 100% sure it’s the merit of the tehillim she said.

But there’s more.


Like most of us in Israel (maybe, all around the world today, who knows….) she’s been finding it hard to sleep at night.

A lot of us have had a subconscious fear of terrorists breaking in at night, and murdering us in our beds, God forbid.

But after that accident happened, my friend told me that she now understands that God doesn’t need a ‘terrorist’ to kill anyone – it could have happened even with something as simple as taking a bike ride.

And now that she’s understanding that ONLY God decides if she lives or dies, she is feeling like a whole weight just lifted off her, spiritually.


I know this kind of sounds strange – but you get peace of mind from accepting that if God wants you dead, there is nothing you can do change that, except making teshuva and praying a lot.

(And even then, nothing is 100% guaranteed.)

But the truth sets you free.

And the truth is, only God is running the world.


This morning, I got an email asking me this:

I have been reading your blog here and there and Its a bit confusing the messages from the Rav.

Firstly saying a whole book of tehilim is not really so possible with a busy household and I would like to believe that my avodah right now is making sure my Husband and kids are being taken care of properly.

Secondly, getting rid of an iPhone I do believe is a big problem and have really been asking Hashem to help me with this. But then again if we didn’t have internet we wouldn’t be able to stay connected nor be able to see his messages.

And Yet the Ravs right hand man […] has whatapp and posts things that the Rav says. So if we all got rid of internet we wouldn’t have email or pidyon or anything of that sort.

Also the Rav has his own website so I don’t understand the messages.


This is what I sent back:

I understand what you’re saying, and sometimes it is confusing.

For me, I kind of see the Rav as a ‘coach’, at least in terms of this discussion. The coach is trying to help you do the v best you can do – he’s going to demand 100%, all the time – even though no-one can give 100% all the time in reality.

But the people who come the closest to that achieve the most on the track – and also in life, spiritually, and generally.

Re: internet, we are currently all stuck with it, until God breaks the klipah. but I have never had a smartphone…. ever. so it’s possible to do without one still and still be ‘in the real world’. but v difficult, for sure, and requires a big – HUGE – amount of mesirut nefesh.

B’hatzlacha….and keep praying.

Whatever you can manage with the tehillim is amazing, even if just a couple a day.


Tachlis, 99.9% of us are stuck having to use the internet at the moment, until God finally rescues us from us.

But the question is, if we’re going to accept and even ‘enjoy’ our subjugation to this, or if we’re going to keep fighting it with every ounce of strength we have.


For example….I got rid of the Spotify app a few weeks ago on my PC, even though I had the Premium version, that was meant to let me listen to downloaded songs ‘offline’.

But then, something changed, and it just wouldn’t let me listen ‘offline’ any more.

(My PC is probably being hacked a lot, honestly, there’s a lot of weird things that happen, like my mouse moving all by itself, and then opening folders by itself when I’m online….)


Point is, even though I got stuck having to have wifi installed in the house during Covid, when everyone had to be online all the time – I am still ‘fighting it’ every step I can.

I still unplug the router immediately I finish online, every single time.

So, there was just no way that I was going to accept the  new reality of Spotify only streaming (at least to me…) online.


My kids think I’m a little crazy.

(Although one of them also just has a Nokia, and the other one keeps trying to ditch the smartphone, but is finding it very hard.)

What can I say?

Whatsapp is probably the single biggest ‘trojan horse’ for smartphones in the frum community at the moment…. But when more of us find the spiritual koach to explore different ways of doing things and ditching Whatsapp, that will change.)


Point is – I have no choice but to have wifi.

I have no choice but to be ‘online’ in some ways, like all of us.

But I am still fighting with every bit of strength I have, to protest the internet cage I’m currently trapped in.


Each person knows their own battles.

Each person knows their own tests.

But every tiny bit of mesirut nefesh – self-sacrifice – we do right now is mamash doing enormous things in shemayim, to lighten up all the horrible stuff that is happening, and help this to start turn around the sweet way.

It’s not an all-or-nothing situation.

If you can’t do a whole book of tehillim every day – at least do one! Every single day!

Or do a Tikkun Haklali.

Or make a commitment to try to get the whole book done by a certain day…

Whatever is going to work for you, but the point is to not just turn over and go back to sleep, but to make some effort, some mesirut nefesh.

With the tehillim.

With the tznius.

With the internet and smartphones.

Because whatever ‘small’ thing you do, really make a huge difference to the outcome for Am Yisrael.

And for yourself, most of all.

And may we just hear good news.


BTW, my daughter is still binge-watching old episodes of Friends, as part of her coping strategy.

Long story short… the last few weeks I have been hearing so many one liners (and horrible canned laughter) from Friends.

Matthew Perry (Chandler Bing in Friends) went into cardiac arrest and passed away yesterday.

This tweet is from 2021:


Yeah, don’t tell me.

We can never really know why these things happen, and who are we to judge other people?


Yesterday, I got into a big discussion with one of my kids.

Most of her circle are formerly ‘dati-leumi’ atheists, or people who grew up being brainwashed ‘against’ God and ‘religion’, God forbid.

Thank God, she still believes in Hashem (and for that, we mostly have to thank Rabbenu….)

But in the meantime, she got very upset with any suggestion that the two shomer shabbat kibbutzim in the South were saved from all the atrocities and terrorists on Simchat Torah.


Who are you to judge these things?!?!?

She was yelling at me.

Even though we both know personally the guy who was saved from the Nova party just because he decided that week to keep Shabbat.

Maybe, God just wants us to have achdut, and to not have ‘sinat chinam’ talking badly about the dead on the kibbutzim?!?!?


At that point, I have to admit I lost my cool.

All this was going on yesterday morning, when there was a very thick atmosphere of ‘din’ hanging over Jerusalem. I hadn’t slept properly for nearly three weeks. I’d had a headache for 2 days solid. I was worrying about a ‘ground invasion’ into Gaza that could see thousands of our soldiers blown to pieces – and for nothing, tachlis.

And here, my daughter was telling me that what was going to save us all was just achdut – and not returning to God.

I.e. – totally missing the point of what is really going to get this to turn around the sweet way, with no more deaths of innocent people, God forbid.


I was in the middle of saying tehillim when we were having that argument.

Here’s a bit of tehillim 50:

“But to the wicked, God said ”what’s the point of telling you about My laws?…Because you hate censure (mussar), and you threw My words behind you….

I will rebuke you and lay it clearly before your eyes!

Now understand this, those who forgot about God, lest I tear you asunder and there will be no-one to come and rescue you.

The person who offers Me a confession [of his sins] honors Me.

And the one who puts himself back in order – I will show him the Salvation of God.”


God forbid, my daughter’s friends aren’t ‘wicked’.

They are just stupid, stubborn, misguided, brainwashed and caught in a massive ‘media’ klipa.

And I also realised that my daughter is doing her best to be a good mellitz  for them – a good spiritual advocate, trying to ‘avert the decrees’ anyway she can.

Once we both understood what was happening yesterday, after a lot of yelling and crying, we made peace and had more respect for the other person.

Tachlis, she doesn’t want any more dead Jews – and neither do I.

But also tachlis – the way to avoid more dead Jews is for us to put God very clearly back in the picture.

And sadly, that’s still a message that a lot of people are allergic to hearing.


What can we do?

Say more tehillim!

Rebbe Nachman says explicitly that reciting tehillim prepares people to ‘make teshuva’ – to return to God.

And not just the actually person saying them – all of Am, all of the Jewish people, all the people of the world.

Each day, I am dedicating my book of tehillim to a different cause.

Yesterday, I ‘dedicated’ to breaking the klipa of false beliefs, that are keeping so many people trapped far away from God, and getting a real solution to their problems.

Today, after another argument with my husband, I’m dedicating it to breaking the klipa of ‘lies’ that is preventing so many of us from seeing what is clearly in front of our faces.

And I’m in a good mood – because I KNOW that all these prayers of all of us, all the teshuva, all the mesirut nefesh of women cutting up their immodest clothes (and posting pictures of them doing that on Instagram….) is ALREADY turning the tide of Am Yisrael.

Regardless of what the lying news and our corrupt puppets tell us.


Yesterday, someone told me a story she heard, about a balanit in Kiryat Sefer whose mikva got used by a survivor from Kibbutz Be’eri.

The woman told the balanit that four months earlier, her and her husband decided to start keeping the laws of family purity.

They are the only people in their whole row of houses on the kibbutz who are still alive.

Achdut for sure has it’s place.

But going forward, making real teshuva and staying close to God is what is actually going to make the difference here.


OK, last thoughts for today.

I was pondering the Rav’s comments on ‘friendly fire’ – which he has made a lot of times, recently – and I went to see if there was anything that would shed more light on them.

I got to THIS.

Truth is the first casualty in war, so of course everything has to be very carefully considered and verified, especially when the anti-semites are all over it like a rash.

But in light of the Rav’s comments, I found it very interesting, to consider some other possibilities of how so many of these houses in the kibbutzim literally got blown to pieces.


And the last question I have is:

What happened to the 14 merkava tanks and 17 armored personnel carriers that ‘Hamas’ is meant to have stolen from the IDF on October 7th?

(Read THIS, if you didn’t hear about that piece of information.)

How would ‘Hamas’ know how to operate these tanks and armored personnel carriers?

It’s not like hotwiring a car, and just driving it away….

And what role did these stolen tanks have to play, in destroying so many Jews on October 7th?

BH, the truth will come out soon.



Here’s a snippet from that link above, describing the fire power of these 14 ‘lost’ Merkava tanks:

Valued at $5 million (RM22 million) each, Israel possesses up to 600 Merkava 4 variant armored tanks equipped with a 120mm cannon, a heavy 12.7mm machine gun, and a 7.62mm machine gun.

It also has the capability to launch guided missiles like the LAHAT…


With a 1,500 horsepower engine, the Merkava 4 can move at speeds of up to 65 km/h on roads….There are also videos showing abandoned Merkava tanks on the side of the highway, presumably after suffering damage.

In addition to “losing” Merkava 4 armored tanks to Palestinian fighters, the Israeli military is also reported to have lost 10 “Achzarit” armored personnel carriers, five M113 armored personnel carriers, and two “Namer” armored personnel carriers.


Lots to think about here.

And what is preventing ‘Hamas’ from using Israel’s own ‘lost tanks’ and armored personnel carriers against our own troops, if they go into Gaza?

(Answer: only the tehillim…. continue praying!)